Say What You Need To Say

After spending the weekend surrounded by my amazing girls, I realized how much they will be missed and how truly lucky I am to have such fabulous friends.

After finding out a high school friend had passed, I realized how blessed I am and that I don't say what I need to say often enough.

Regardless of his womanizing reputation and pure doucheyness, John Mayer is a brilliant songwriter (in my "professional" opinion of course). Here is a few lines from "Say" - One of my favorite John Mayer songs:

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say

I feel compelled to list a few things that maybe I haven't said yet, but need to:

• My heart is filled with so much love that I want to give it to anyone that gives me the chance to.
• I believe in angels. I also believe that Tori, my best friend, is mine. I would be dead if she wasn't in my life.
• I envy my friends who are continuing their education and know what they want to do in life. I still have no idea what I want to be when I grow up.
• With that said, I'm so proud of each and every one of them. They continue to amaze me with everything they accomplish.
• If it wasn't for one of my "exes" I never would have ran my first half-marathon a few weeks ago. Thank you.
• My father's unconditional love and support got me through my last quarter at UCSB.
• Tori's mom, Lori, may not be my birth mother, but she is my mom.
• I miss and love my little sister more than she knows. I pray for her all the time.
• Rachel gets my ass in gear and inspires me to follow my dreams and heart.
• My Pop's makes me so proud it often brings me to tears.
• I learn from each of my friends.
• Without Jackie's encouragement, I never would have the confidence to start this blog.
• This last Sunday was spent with my big sis and I had one of the greatest days laughing and bonding with her. I will never forget that day.
• I am forever grateful for my mother giving me life and for everything she did in my early childhood.
• I love my family and friends more than they will ever begin to realize.

Say what you need to say.